Holy shit. It's been a while, hasn't it? So much has happened in such a short time. Things have changed, I feel like I've grown up so much, even tho it's only really been a few months. I guess that's what High School does to you. So yeah. I'm sitting here, doing nothing so I might as well write some shit eh?

Saw Green Day againnn! I swear to gosh they're THEE most amazing band to ever walk this earth. They're my heroess :) & BEETEEDUBZ, I'm getting a GD tattoo soon! It's going to be fucking magical. We had to drive an hour & a half to get to Hamilton, but it was definatley worth it. David Duchovny's twin brother was there ;) and ohmygod he was SO hot. Gap shirttt! haha.

I finally finished MDHS. Well, grade 9 I guess. It was fun :) I learned alot, both about school & about myself. Its helped me realise who I am, who my friends are, and my priorities. I mean, yeah, going to schwaa and NorthPole @ lunch was great, actually, it was the best part of the year. I need a pipe, if you know what I mean. But yeah, made some awesome new friends, met some great people and got good grades (for the most part). I kinda miss HS, because everyone was around you, no-one needed rides to hang out at lunch and shit. Now, we don't all chillz cause we can never get togetherr. But yes, people like Anna and I are always chillin like villains.

Jacklyn's away at camp, and I miss her so much! Thankfully, she's coming back soon :)

I loveeeeeee True Blood! Greatest show on TV. Thank god for HBO. WE GOT A DOGGIEEE! I love my Heidi :) shes too cute, but wayy misbehaved.

Anywayss, I think i'm off to watch some XFiles w/ my Daviddd ;) il est tres tres beau.

StayGold,
Jess

 The things I hate about myself.
001. I can't  be myself, because I hate who I've become. I'm not the same little girl with the big brown hair anymore. I'm full of shit because I try to convince myself EVERY SINGLE DAY that I'm still who I used to be. I'm not the award winning, role model student. I grew up, and got over all of that. I'm too concerned about my hair and my clothes to give a shit about anything else. Im bitchy, egomaniacle, rude and arrogant. I have anger managment issuses. I hate most of the person I've become.

002. I can't seem to be sincere. Unless I really truly believe your not like all the other assholes out there, I'll be the biggest lieing bitch you've ever met. I try to be nice, to be honestly concerned but you know, I just don't give a fuck. I have so many problems of my own, I don't think I can deal with all of yours too. Im not a saint, or a miracle worker. I try my best, is that enough for you?

003. I'm obessive. Iv'e come to realise that it's not healthy, I'm not normal. I have jealousy issues & I can't control them. I latch onto things and won't let go for ANYONE. I swear it's not healthy how much I think about you. Your always on my mind, no matter what time of day or what I'm doing. I have come to learn that if I get jealous, I'll do all in my power to get my way. It's horrible, my little obsessive mind is constantly drawing up ways, plans. I hate that I can trust someone so easily, and most of the time it's someone I don't even know.

I'll add more later, because I have enough to write a book. I'm just too lazy to type anymore. Thinking up little, witty comments takes too much of my brain power. I'm listening to some, italian techno. It's good :) Italians make the best techo, hands down.

I love you. You won't read this, or care. I do. I care more than anyone in the world. I can't stop thinking,  about you, me even tho there is no us. Stupid love, stupid years, stupid you, stupid me. 

The CNE is tomorrow. I'm hoping it'll be fun. The vendors in the buildings usually have interesting stuff. I'm looking to buy a ring/necklace or some gauges. I hope there are some hotties there tomorrow haha. Yes, that is all I think about, sue me. 

Even though there are 6 billion people on this planet,
I'd still only choose you.
If you were a fish in the sea,
You'd be the one I'd never set back.
If you were a phone number,
I'd only call you.
If you were a leaf that fell from a tree,
You'd be the only one I wouldn't crunch.
If you were a song,
I'd only play you, over and over.
If you were a star,
I'd only wish upon you every night.

If you were anyone but you,
I'd be lost
I'd be empty
I'd be souless
I'd be heartless, because I gave mine to you.

If you were anyone but yourself,
I don't know what I'd do.